Ketamine Diaries #4

"Let me tell you, what makes ketamine cool is that all the cool kids do it."

This is Part 4 of a series. Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3 are available here.

IV ketamine at the spa-like clinic in New York proved a dramatically different experience from the injection + lozenge combo with Dr. K. 

It’s hard to completely isolate the effects of the medication itself from the context of its administration. Did I feel more relaxed going under with the knowledge that someone was observing me and would be there in case of emergency and to assist my comedown? Probably. Was it a lower dose than what Dr. K gave me? Probably.

I was in a significantly altered state of consciousness, and I forgot my limbs and my body, but I never lost the sense that “I” existed as an individual entity. Instead of only seeing colors and patterns, I saw flashes of the outside world and life as I knew it.

Dr. L eased me back into reality, narrating each step as she removed the IV needle from my arm. She brought in a pot of tea and a cup and told me to take my time and to let her know when I felt ready t…